Suicide obviously concerns a whole lot of you. More people visited my blog each day during the week after I put up my last post “Suicide, Reconsidered” than they normally do for a full week! And not only are Americans concerned about pain-related suicide,, but so are people from all over the world: Russia, India, Israel, Netherlands, Turkey, Australia, Qatar…people from more than 50 countries visited my blog last week.
Although folks are reluctant to leave comments or to initiate conversations on the blog--and I am unlearned on how to get you comfortable about doing so--maybe I’ll figure that out someday--I did receive dozens of emails communications through the blog as well as Facebook messages about the post.
About half of them encouraged me personally in my own struggle; the rest either thanked me for the post or shared their own experiences.
I think you will find these worth pondering:
“Sitting here crying. This is so real, and my pain has been so much worse too, the past month. Thank you. Thank you for posting with grace and mercy. I pray none of us ever get so desperate to make that decision, but I do believe the arms of Jesus will be there. Thank you, Judi, for being His voice.”
“Brave. A subject no one wants to talk about I’ll bet that most of us who really suffer have a ‘back up plan’ whether we really admit it or not. Reading your story makes me feel stronger against it.”
“No false piety in your post, but gutsy reality about suffering and fearing for your family and future…like many of us do. Trusting God sounds easy, but it is the hardest thing--we’ve seen those pitiful souls in the nursing homes; we’ve heard of people living in constant pain. Day by day is the only way to do it.”
“I have been there. For different reasons, but I have been there. Thanks for being brave enough to write about this. I find myself holding back tears because that is just about the loneliest feeling there is. Christ showed up for me too. Changes you, doesn't it?”
“My mother, who lived for years in pain from having been injured in a farming accident, killed herself when I was a teenager. Our pastor told us that she had committed an unforgiveable sin, and would not be able to go to heaven because of it. We were not only heart-broken about this, but we also were treated like outcasts in our church and even our town. I turned away from God for a long time. It has taken many years for me to see God as loving, and only now am I coming to understand how the salvation of Christ is over all our mistakes--even such a big one as suicide. I know my mom was a Christian and now I know I will see her in heaven!”
“My cousin sent me your story because my husband who suffered from a rare form of bone disease committed suicide seven months ago. He could no longer stand me having to care for him for the rest of his life, and for the kids watching him get weaker and weaker. He thought this was “best” for us, but it was awful! We loved him and we miss him! I loved taking care of him and so did our children…He was a believer, so I am glad he is with Jesus, however, I am sad he is not with us. I wish he could have trusted that Jesus would have worked everything out for us. I hope you might think about this if you ever consider suicide again.”
“We who are in Christ need never fear whatever may come.
I depend upon the scripture in Romans 8 that says:
"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship
or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sward?
No in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present or the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation,
will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.’"
--Romans 8: 36 - 38--
P.S. Confused or apathetic about this whole "Christian" thing? Maybe some of my posts will shed new light for you. Check out posts under the following labels: “My faith”, “salvation”, “Light of Jesus”
Until Next Time, God Bless--