An Authentic, Sometimes Gritty, and Always Hopeful Blog for All Who Live with Severe Physical Pain

Friday, December 13, 2013

Only Jesus (…can save me from this.)

I have begun four postings over the past two weeks
I simply am in too much pain to pull them 
together in an organized fashion.

So, today, I submit a poem I wrote a few days ago.
 It’s a cry of torment and a decree of gratefulness
 to the one who was born to give us life,
 strength, and hope.

In Him I have my all, despite this great pain.  
I present this on behalf of all who suffer alongside of me.

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Who will save me from the crushing pain that has wrapped itself around my head 
and face these many weeks? 
Only Jesus. 

Who knows how my heart breaks at not being present for my family? 
Only Jesus.

To whom can I cry aloud without guard or embarrassment? 
       Only Jesus.

Who will cause me to see my home as a place of solace, rather than a prison? 
Only Jesus.

To whom can I turn when fear for my future tempts my soul towards despair? 
Only Jesus.

Who will step into the gap I leave, providing attention to my family 
in ways I cannot fathom?
       Only Jesus.

Who can possibly give my husband enough patience, fortitude, strength and love 
to bear the challenge of this journey? 
Only Jesus.

Who will protect my spirit from the judgments of those who cannot or will not 
try to understand? 
Only Jesus

Who can forgive my selfishness and wayward actions, and give me strength 
and humility to behave otherwise, despite the pain? 
Only Jesus.

Who can use me to help others even though I am suffering so?
Only Jesus.

Who was born so that one day this pain will be a distant memory for me? 
Only Jesus.

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Oh, thank you, Jesus, my Savior, my Lord, my Everything. 

From the bible: John chapter 3, verses 16 and 17

   Blessings of Hope,



  1. Judi~~
    How I wish for your Pain to simply STOP!! So many simple aspects of LIFE get completely Turned Upside down when PAIN is in the mix--we never know the unspoken thoughts of people around us. I had a very dear church friend tell me recently about somebody "Doubting" the Pain I deal with~~~her response stunned me--she told the person "Martha is a woman who carries a lot of Suffering-there is nothing FAKE!"

    I relate to everything you said--having to spend so much time at home--you begin to feel "lock down time"but in reality-home is the source of Comfort! No Pain doesn't leave, but when I slowly crawl into bed and allow my heart to settle down~~~kind of like getting "Still with The Lord" I do notice a slight difference.


    Hang in there Judi--I am with you in prayer and Love.... martha

    1. I thank God for our warm and comfortable homes. Thank you for your prayers, not only for me, but for all who suffer.

  2. Judi,
    Only Jesus is right! Lord, I lift up my friends Judi and Warren - I pray for healing and relief from this pain. With thanksgiving and by the Blood of Jesus, I cry out oh Lord!

    Psalm 86
    2b You are my God; save your servant who trusts in you.

    3 Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I call to you all day long.

    4 Bring joy to your servant, for to you, O Lord, I lift up my soul.

    5 You are forgiving and good, O Lord, abounding in love to all who call to you.

    6 Hear my prayer, O LORD; listen to my cry for mercy.

    7 In the day of my trouble I will call to you, for you will answer me.

    1. Thank you, dear friend. On behalf of all who suffer pain, I will pray this for all who suffer!